Fun fact: when written in Chinese, the word Crisis is composed of 2 characters – one represents Danger & and the other represents Opportunity. I can so relate to it today and seriously, our fate depends on the part we focus upon. I truly believe that everything in this world happens for a reason, we are here for a reason, we are not at some place for a reason, we are not with some people for a reason, and a good one for that matter. Some things are way beyond our control and they should be left that way.
Anyway, this is what I am witnessing sitting here at my desk at Not-In-A-Very-Good-Phase workplace…..
A smile, A sad smile, A genuinely sad smile!
A guilty smile! I-did-try-my-best smile!!
A told-ya-not-to-mess-with-me smile!
A concerned smile! I-am-with-you smile!!
A fear smile! A so-many-years-in-vain smile!!
A confident smile! A Thank-God smile!
I have noticed a change in me, and I am working to maintain it. I used to be a very short-tempered, frustrated- about-anything-and-everything kind of person. It showed on my face and it was taking a toll on my behaviour with my family and peers. But lately, I am seeing a new me in me. Petty little things that used to go unnoticed in my fast-paced-no-time-to-breathe life earlier, are now making a difference to my days. I capture such tiny incidents, smile about them and lock them in my mind for the day, and those positive butterflies dance all day in my head. Impact – no anger, minimal frustration!! Yayyy!!
Now what these incidents are – I had never in my life travelled independently, during my spinster days. And now, here I am, running to catch a tram, to reach my child eagerly waiting for me at her kindie. Although I hated running during my school days, it feels like an achievement now having caught that tram with a little effort. In another incident, I was walking towards a nearby shopping centre, and this autistic child holding his mom’s hand smiled at me, and I smiled back and then her mum smiled back at me, it was nice, filled my heart with admiration for that mum and love for that child. If Aahana speaks a new word, aww, how it delights me; when I see her making new friends and hugging her friends and not crying when I leave her at her day care…..it’s a joy! And aww that hug that she gives me before reciting her zillion stories from the day when we meet again in the evening!! Bliss!!
Losing a few grams, being able to control my sweet tooth when I see a freshly baked brownie with chocolate sauce dripping and spreading captivating aroma, right when I am on my way to buy a salad for lunch…..Yippee…I did it!!
Happiness is just around the corner, look up & find some in your days & see the difference for yourself!!